Trying to Feel Like Myself Again
I had this phase last year where everything looked totally fine on the outside, but I kept getting this sinking feeling every night before bed — like I wasn’t where I was supposed to be, even though I couldn’t explain what “supposed to be” meant. Therapy helped a bit, but I wanted something I could turn to in between sessions to keep track of where my head was at. I ended up stumbling across liven — when I was reading about mental health tools that don’t just throw generic quotes at you. What I liked was how it helped me slow down and actually name the stuff I was feeling. One of the features literally walked me through identifying what I value in different areas of my life, and it was kind of eye-opening to see how out of sync my daily choices were from what actually mattered to me. It wasn’t preachy, and it didn’t try to push some one-size-fits-all solution. It just gave me a space to check in with myself and notice patterns — like how I always felt drained after saying yes to things I didn’t want to do, or how often I minimized how I felt around certain people. Over time, it started helping me shift the way I talk to myself. I still mess up, obviously, but I recover quicker now. And it’s not even about being positive all the time — it’s just about being real with yourself, and that’s been more helpful than I expected.
In life don’t happen during the “big” moments but in those quiet, in-between hours when nothing is happening. That space can be really uncomfortable, but maybe that’s where change sneaks in.